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Ketika fajar menyingsing..
Mulai menapakkan wujudnya..
Berdesakkan dengan sapuan angin pagi..
Mengepul menjadi kabut keabuan..

Aku ada disana..
Berdiam menahan napasku..
Terasa berat dalam dadaku..
Aku tak ingin ia merasukiku..

Kemudian muncul perlahan..
Dengan aku yang baru.

Current Music: Arashi - Smile

Aku sedang berada..
Berada di dasar hati..
Kelam berdebu
Abu-abu..

Ketika putih mengajak kepada kebaikan..
Hitam mengelak tajam
Bahwa hidup ini adalah sebuah waktu
Untuk berkelana dan bersenang - senang
Tak berucap apapun..
Ajakan yang terkesan normal..
Namun memiliki arti yang garang..

Lalu kau memandang putih..
Melambaikanmu dengan sapuan air matanya
Namun engkau enggan..
Ia tak seperti yang kau mau..

Tapi Tuhan lebih tahu..
Akan seperti apa jadinya
Jika engkau bersama dengan kecerahan
Tanpa merasakan kegelapan..
Ia biarkan kau menangisinya
Lalu kembali pada jalan kebenaran
***

Harus apa?
Harus bagaimana?
Lalu seketika diam
Berhamburan di dalam bayang
Semu memang
Abu abu remang
Seperti terkikis karang

Aku bertanya...
Tapi tak menemukan jawaban
Lalu seperti apa kah sebenarnya?
Aku tak mengerti
Peluh relung ini kian berbuih
Hendak bersembur menjadi sebuah tangisan pilu
Sungguh tak dewasa!

Kau bilang begitu, selalu
Tapi Tuhan lebih tahu
Hidupku yg kian kelabu
Yang takut menyeberangi senja kala itu
Hidupku ragu
Dan terus begitu

Ayah, Ibu..
Andai aku tak dilahirkan
Apa aku akan sememalukan ini?
Apa aku akan menangisi diri ini?
Kau tak mengajari,
Hanyalah aku yang mengabdi
Lembayu senja matahari
Yang kulewati dengan patah hati
Aku hanya dapat menanti..
Dari pagi sampai pagi..
Hingga aku mati..

Aaahh~~~ its been a while since we havent met each other..
I.. personally love to meet everyone or new against my life..
Its just like a new experience with new peoples beside me..
Feeling very grateful..

Last week me and 3 mj wifeys have had a cooking class in Maya-san Appartment. Altho i came later than the others but the cooking class still goes on..

We had made Kani and Corn Kuriimu Koroke which is very tasty one.. our favourite one.. i swear it was sooo delicious..

Maya-san taught me how to prepare the ingredients and also tips how to keep that shape.. interesting..

The more bcs i met Renka-chan--Maya-san's daughter-- joining us to make sauce.. she is very cute oh gosh! I wanna meet her again someday..

And the result.. tadaaa~~~

Yummy~~~
Then we ate it together..

But took some photos before the koroke beaten..

Yeay~~~ we are soo happy to be..

After finishing, we go out to coffee shop.. to FANGIRLING!!! Yeah this's what we were waiting for..!

Exchanging arashi copy and paste and more and laughing and video calling with Kitty outhere.. ayeay one day which completely happy..

We go crazy like... we shud go crazy haha..

Till we meet again, girls

Current Music: Arashi - Love Rainbow

Happy Eid!! What a wonderfull annual celebration!!
this year i've been so..... happy to celebrate it with my family members..
may Allah always keep our silaturrahim until the next eid comes..

such a wonderful days!!

once again APPY EID MINNA!!

me tired..
i dled ayh life tour but cant play it on my laptop.
can someone teach me how to solve it?
it pissed me off..
me done here!!!

ohhh my of day...
thanks..
because i finally changed my backyground..

uunnch luvly

THANK YOU :*

Current Music: lady gaga - just dance

i think i gonna write a story inspired by my friend kitty..
but how??
i never write a story with english..
it means this is my first story with english?
gambattemasu!!

Current Music: selena gomez - who says

i dont know how to manage my dw acc..
but i hope arashian have a better place here...
we can not stop share the happiness right?
so.. yoroshiku onegaishimasu^^

it's not about picking Arashi members as my ichi or someone that i love.. it's about the options which gradually mean to my future..
and it's so hard.

i never wanna be in the middle of something that terrible me.. it's hard to say goodbye with one thing that i start to love.. all of sudden..

but as a daughter, for my family sake.. i turn into the company. and i finally became an employee now.. i'll leave my uni soon.. and also all of my friends who have been by my side.. we care, we laugh, we hang out, we talk, we try, we shout each other.. they all are my lil sister.. and i love they keep on trying to reach their future. as i did..

i will miss the time we've spent together..
and yet.. we havent go around Jakarta at much..
we just filled the chance at that time, right?
we shud prepare for our next long journey..

guys, keep fighting!! me as and older.. i pray at you all to be a successful, a carest teacher in the future.. try to get the best!!! We'll meet someday.. when i see you've been standing in front of the class 😊🙂

it's hard to say goodbye.. my friends

Iam soo happy today.. or maybe it was yesterday lol..
i posted this one over midnite..

this is my first time to spend my time with a Junbait.. and just the two of us..
shall i say it as a date? lol.. but yeah it was a date haha..

( my memories )

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: one love - arashi

Someone told me that my leppy has been crashed during installation and shud be repair or uninstall or reset factory..
I sad. I realize it..
But if i regain about what happened to my leppy recently, it's because he used my leppy as android root machine.. very lol
He told me my leppy crashed, but he just act like he dont know everything he did to my leppy.. T_T
I just.. said "Oh I dont know about any of it. Especially about computer and pc"
I hardly calm down my self not to more angry and angry.. with his arguments. Without any solves. Lol
I felt like i wanna kick his ass!!! It piss me off!!!! :'(
Bye~~○_○

Happy 35!! or maybe 36?? lol no matter anyway..
Happy happy birthday for the scariest person (for my self) ever!!!!
Wish everything gonna be fine and success!!
Keep healthy keep eating keep handsome stay kakkoi!!!
Sorry for a bit late celebration lol..

i a bit confused with the title.. but that representing what i felt during a day..
it happened yesterday..
when we are doing as usual. behaving under the pressure that actually appears around our life. my family..
something that usually comes with us.. when we've been in a hardest moment..
we want to gave up.. but we realized that we are stronger at that moment..

maybe this is merely a thing that i always share to you all..
and you couldnt think what that things will be.. right?
just guessing with your thought, your perceptions.. whatever..

when i was down.. and no one help me out.. help me up to raise my soul..
i head up.. i feel jealous with people who live their life simply..
what about me? what about people around me? what about my family? why?? it isnt fair!!
and then i cried a loud.. in my heart i screamed.. but outside keep silently..

i wonder how if i've been in the ground.. poorly..
with nothing.. i only could see the sky.. clouds hang on together..
they live there with no fear.. they live peacefully with no jealous each other..
i wondering.. why couldnt my life as great as clouds life in the sky?
why must i always be a jealousy?
what the advantage?
human being.. yes.. so why?
"maybe that's very you, girl!" one cloud talked to me.
"huh? why?" i asked.
"think it by yourself! you are reflecting what you've been"

~~~

Current Mood: moody
Current Location: under the sky
Current Music: ikimonogakari - blue bird

aaa~~~ i've planned abt making a fic for maojun for celebrate Mao-chan's bday but i thought i can finish it soon...
plus it was late very late celebration huhu..
it shud be yesterday nee...
gomen~~...

so...

HAPPY BDAY PRETTY GIRL, MAO-CHAN!!!
iam waiting for your existense on show biz..
keep being a strong girl!!

always support youuuuu!!!!
whatever will be.. you r still Mao-chan for me... lol

Current Mood: happy

i just... crazying around hours to spend my night till tomorrow..
I HAVE MY FIRST FINAL EXAM and feels like damn hell!!
i do studying.. crashed my head at one hit!!
i cant read anymore.. i've got dizzy.. till now...
nothing i can do..
im playing music.. helps me refreshing my brain..
but what after dat? what shud i do, huh?
books? again? i gave up... huhu~~~ *ran out*

anyway i fell in love with this guy..

he sang his "heartbeat" for me.. kyaa~~~ melted at dat time!! accidentally!! lol

but wait wait... it's a sin!!!
it's just a reason to skip my exam out of my head..
yeah... i have something to do but too lazy to do dat so i turned the music on..
and then melted... like chocolate ganache dat i watched this morning...
too sweet to be merely a song.. dat was beatiful..
argh!!!

just hoping tomorrow miracle will comes...
fortune appears in the mid of the class..
yeah... then i'll waste my money in sev*n e*even like jun did a couple days ago.. lol
dat was really elegant way of life...
drank coffee.. dat u bought it by urself.. then go out by yourself...
papas coming caught u up with a glass of iced black coffee in ur hand... lol..
i even cant think clearly now...
i burned... my brain burned...
lol

see ya...

Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: christopher - heartbeat

yup.. failed end year celebration..
i planned abt scrapbook before.. but iam not doing dat this of all..
any of nothing lol...
iam sick and damn!! i've lost my memories... :'(
but it's okay..
i'll start with a freshly 2017...
i hope everything gonna be better than before..

HAPPY 2017EVERYONE!!!

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Location: 2017

dat was a long journey for me for us...
i woke up at 4.30 am..
with semi-alive-eyes (lol) i washed dishes.. i dont know why i washed dishes instead lol
then took make up...

i actually went to station at 5 and been waiting for long long time..
until i got bored!!! train never compromise!!!
finally i got train at 6.. i had been 1 hour waiting!!!
i dont really like waiting as tsukasa always did it lol..
but this is the one and only way to meet my friends they've been waiting...

btw why did i talk abt my morning stuff? instead i wanted to celebrate my senpai's wed day?

yeah... i felt really loving.. i mean the romance between 2 persons who got married..
who will legalizing everything they do each other.. fuuu~~~ *blushing*

imagine if i do the same thing with them... aahhh~~~ it will be wasurenai memory nee...
i cant feel the air at the moment..
we exchanging ring, hugging.. and more *tomato blushhsssss*
i must be too happy to say words..
all i could do is just smile... be thanks to God who gave me the one that i love... that i believe in..
who? i dont know.. he still be God's himitsu... which i always waiting for... xixi

kekkon omedetou gozaimasu both of you...

shimau

riikushi shiawase ni naritai

Current Mood: loved
Current Location: wedding hall
Current Music: arashi - ai wo sakebe

aaaa~~ iam late!!! it has 25th dec in japan i guess lol..
but this will never too late to celebrating..

HAPPY 34 BDAY AIBA-CHAN!!!

OTANJOUBI OMEDETTO GOZAIMASU AIBABY!!

glad to see you keep healthy in the of the year...
hopefully the success on kouhaku u will hosted..
aaa~~~ cant resist your kindness!!!
you are totally my type yo... lol
this isnt important anyway haha...
once again..

HAPPY 34 BDAY!!

Current Mood: happy
Current Location: around the cage
Current Music: arashi - magical song

before the year end..
before the day changes...
before tomorrow...
i wanna say and celebrating...
how proud to be a person that always loved by her children...
how precious life to be with her...
she, who always be in my heart..
and never be the other person never ever...
i promise as daughter...
i just wanna say...

HAPPY MOTHER DAY, MUM...

i as your daughter have no strenght to live a life without you...
you are my life, my heaven, the person that i won't leave to..
the person who always be patient to handle everything... in our family...
you, the one and only who can understand how life should goes on..
that never give up.. your steps.. never stop.. everyday...
you count how much you spend your time...
to be with us... as long as God give you breath lo still alive..
i cant resist this tears.. bullsh*t... i dont care...
i love you.. forever.. mum...
thank you for give me a birth... until i've been an adult.. until now...
thank you...

Current Mood: proud
Current Location: mum's armpit
Current Music: arashi - affection

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